2012 Begins…..and I have an Identity Crisis.

     Well, sort of la

 

SO ANYWAYYYS, there a whole lot on my mind that I just can’t express by speech, or Facebook statuses. Twitter? Haven’t been down that hellhole for ages.

TUMBLR you say?! That faeces is for emo kids, or REALLY hipster people…or perverts signing up to see naked hipster girls.

  Believe it or not, I got that from 9GAG.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(my habit of putting random spaces still lives on strong)

 

 

 

 

 

 

I want to be an actor, lawyer, doctor, musician, martial arts teacher, political analyst, businessman, stock broker, banking investments, comedian, zoologist (not to be mistaken as zookeeper, that shit’s nasty).

I want to be successful.

And then I realised, my perception of “success” is based on how people, or in general, society views me.

“WAHHHHH YOU DOCTOR AH? SO SMART”

“WAHHH YOU BUSINESS MAN AH? SO RICH”
WAHH YOU LAWYER AH?”

Those above is what made me perceive as, successful.

“ HARRRR YOU ACTOR AH? GOT MONEY MEH?”
”HAR YOU COMEDIAN AH?! CLOWN IS IT?!”
”HARRRR YOU ZOOLOGIST AH?! STAY IN ZOO WAN IS IT?!”
”SO YOUNG BECOME PASTOR AH? GOT MONEY MEH?”

“har, can you provide, pamper, your wife, with whatever she wants or not?”
”har, your wife earns more than you, you MAN or woman?”
”har, you cousins are more wealthier than you, what are you doing?”

Har, you are useless or what?

There are social, financial……standings in life that are deemed, useful, in life. And I can very well say, that’s what I believe in.

Doesn’t matter whether are you happy or not, money brings happiness, naturally. That’s what I’m experiencing. The liberation you feel about not having to worry whether the bank account is empty or not.

I want my mum to drive a mercedes in the future.

I want my wife to have whatever or go wherever she wants

I want my kids to study the things that THEY are INTERESTED in
without having to worry about finance.

I want to make my family proud of what I do, who I’ve become.

 

 

 

I want my family to be happy, regardless of whether I’m happy or not.
They happy, I happy.

 

 

 

 

I’m a pleaser, level:100